Archive for the ‘Kind of true’ Category

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No bullshit

September 10, 2011

The bartender came to the middle of nowhere because he’d tired of cities. He’d made his money elsewhere, and now was content to pour rye into tumblers and open bottles of beer for patrons who leaned heavily on the bar, weighed down by the emptiness outside.

He mapped the landscape: One bar for the liberals, one where the washed-up showgirls come out of retirement late at night after a few too many, and his place, where people keep to themselves.

There’s no bullshit here, he said. People come in, drink, lie to each other and leave.

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The genesis of tears

September 6, 2011

Are you crying because you’re happy, he asked, or because you’re sad?

Both, I said, but that comprised just part of it. I was happy and sad, but also wide awake and exhausted, sated and starving for more, ready to escape and never wanting to go, and grateful, grateful, ever-grateful for this otherworldly home.

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Gift

August 22, 2011

You’ll have to put it on me, he said, and he crouched a little so I could reach up to clasp the pendant around his neck. I had just taken a photo of a metal horse; he had just walked us through a map of marvelous things. I knew nothing, really, of what lay ahead. But this year, we’ll arrive at the dust together.

I have this year’s pendant, I told him before we left. But I want to put it on you again when we get there.

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Cash back

July 8, 2011

“What’s the cash back limit?” I asked the grocery check out clerk.

“Three hundred,” she said.

I laughed. “I thought it’d be forty or something.”

“We’re running a business here,” she said. “This ain’t no two-bit operation. We’re here to fulfill your dreams.”

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Static and sleep

June 20, 2011
All night I dreamed we were trying to reach each other, but the connection failed again and again and again.Let’s keep trying, he said. I just want to talk to you.

But if I can’t understand you, what good is it? I blaze hot at technology failure, and my face burned as I adjusted my headset. There was nothing but static on the line.

I have to go, I said, and I dropped back to that strange place between asleep and awake, where the static recedes to an unsteady background rush, like the noise of a nearby highway.

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Stumbling waltz

June 18, 2011
It’s a stumbling waltz I dance, the orchestra slightly off-rhythm, the string section a sixteenth-turn-of-the-peg off-key. There are no program notes for this sort of thing, no explanation of the composer’s intent.

The music’s stutters more as it goes, but this is how I learned to dance, years ago, and how I’m still learning. ONE-two-three, ONE-two-three, everything all a-jangle. The conductor already left the stage, but the music, it never quite resolves.

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Dead drop

June 16, 2011

Aldrich Ames grew sloppy with his chalk marks. He left so many, even the neighbors commented there must be a spy among them.

Like Ames, I took to drawing marks on mailboxes, leaving messages that the right person might find and carry with them. I am no spy, but I developed my cut-outs, ensured I could reach someone I did not get to see.

But eventually, carelessness blew covers. My phone rang with calls from strange numbers. When I answered, once, the voice at the other end asked, Who is this?

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